Sanskrit,
a Sacred Model of Language
by Vyaas Houston
Part I
What
makes a language sacred is how we use it. If a language is
used to discover the sacredness of life, it becomes a sacred
language. Whether or not a language is sacred is determined
by who is using it. This in turn has a great deal to do with
whether a language is being used consciously or unconsciously,
whether we use language as an instrument to accomplish our
real purpose in life, that is, wake up and find out who we
are; or we are unconsciously programmed by language, to maintain
patterns of a struggle for individual survival established
by previous generations.
Most of us, most of the time, tend to be at the effect of
the unconscious operation of language. To make the point,
let me describe a language exercise that I have done with
thousands people to date. I ask a group of people to listen
to some very simple Sanskrit sounds, sung in a rhythmic sequence,
and then individually duplicate the sounds, based upon what
they heard. I also make it clear that this is not an exercise
in which it's important to get it right, and should anyone
not remember a part of the sequence, he/she should simply
make something up - fill in the blank. I also suggest that
everyone should just have fun doing the exercise, and stay
with the rhythm. Once we've been through several rounds, I
ask everyone to describe what they were thinking, while doing
the exercise, which was other than just simply listening and
duplicating or making up sounds. Although I have done this
exercise more than a hundred different times, in many different
locations, I have always found the results to be practically
identical. We are so completely consumed by the idea of "getting
it right" and the approaching moment of "my turn"
that there is little space left to actually listen and enjoy
the sounds. This overriding preoccupation with getting it
right is accompanied by an endless barrage of strategies,
evaluations, comparisons, judgements, expectations, hopes,
rationalizations and fears of consequences. By writing down
this list of what everyone was thinking, the unconscious operation
of language becomes visible. Most people are not aware they
are thinking all this until they see the language of it written
on a flip chart.
But this is just peeling away the first layer. There's a
still deeper layer of the unconscious operation of language
where we have predefined who we are, based on whether or not
we get it right. This can be seen by making a list of the
apparent implications and consequences of getting it right
and getting it wrong.
IF I GET IT RIGHT:
I am a smart person.
I am a competent person.
I am accepted and respected.
I am likeable and lovable.
I am a skillful person.
I am a powerful person.
I can make money.
I am a success.
I am a winner.
I am better than others.
I can be happy.
I have choices and options.
I am in control.
Others cannot control and dominate me.
I will not be abused, the victim of others' cruelty.
I will not suffer and die.
IF I GET IT WRONG:
I am a stupid person.
I am an incompetent person.
I am unworthy of respect.
No one could like or love me.
I am a klutz.
I am powerless.
I am doomed to poverty.
I am a failure.
I am a loser.
Others are better than me.
I'm doomed to misery.
I have no choice, no options.
I am a victim.
Others will control and dominate me.
I will be abused, the victim of others' cruelty.
I will suffer and die.
The above is a perfect example of a non-sacred model of language.
We could call it a "dominate and survive model of language"
or simply a "survival language". What is most striking
about this model of language is that who I believe myself
to be is determined by whether or not I get it right. The
other most distinctive feature of a survival language is the
utter falseness of the conclusions it is used to arrive at.
It's certainly not true that we are either smart or stupid
because we do or do not get something right, let alone that
we would live or die.
We are given every opportunity to simply have a good time,
improvise, play with sounds. But instead we choose to take
it as a test of survival. In other words, it's more important
to prove our capacity to survive than it is to have a good
time. The hidden unconscious language that we base our lives
upon, dictates to us that we must get it right or we will
be dominated by others, and that threatens our safety, our
well being and ultimately our survival. The first sign of
a non-sacred, survival language is that it refers to "getting
it right" as "smart", as "success"
etc. Such a language defines a person by the way he/she performs
in a particular circumstance. The person is always at the
effect of the language. If I get it right, I'm smart. If I
get it wrong, I'm stupid.
The problems and conflicts that occur with a survival language
are myriad. To be happy, I must get it right all the time.
And my primary motivation for doing so is to prove that I'm
not stupid so others won't control me. My motivation for whatever
I do becomes essentially a negative one. Since I can't get
it right all the time, I either have to have a strategy for
getting better than others and than I have been previously
-- faster; or I must withdraw from circumstances which could
potentially make me look stupid. The problem with "getting
better" is that I become programmed to always be getting
better, but it's never good enough. Getting better is an endless
proposition. This survival model of language has conflict
and suffering woven into its very fabric.
This particular phenomenon is defined in the Yoga Sutras
as avidyaa, the fundamental lack of awareness which is the
root klesha, or subtle cause of all suffering. The definition
of avidyaa is: anitya-ashuci-duhkha-anaatmasu nitya-shuci-sukha-aatma-khyaatir
avidyaa
"avidyaa is an identity with a self which is not the
self; with happiness in what is actually suffering; with purity
in what is really impurity; and permanence in what is really
impermanent." Avidyaa perfectly describes the nature
of a survival language. A survival language is steeped in
avidyaa. As long as who I am, is defined by such a language,
I remain the victim of an endless vicious circle.
The question is -- why would we choose a language which keeps
us in perpetual self-judgement. The fact is that we never
chose the language. It has always been around, and as children,
we were given no other options. As long as we do not consciously
redesign the way we use language, we remain at the effect
of the past, conditioned by the very language of the past
to repeat the patterns of the past, again and again.
As long as this survival model of language is in effect,
it seems virtually impossible for people to learn Sanskrit.
This is to a large degree due to the fact that Sanskrit is
a perfect model of a sacred language, and a sacred language
cannot be learned by means of a survival language.
This is not to say that English or any other language could
not be used as a sacred language. In fact, it has to be, to
begin the study of Sanskrit. Conversely, Sanskrit could be
used in a survival mode. It's just that in the design of most
languages, there is very little safeguard against them being
used as survival languages. And in the design of Sanskrit,
there is every conceivable feature built in to keep it operating
as a sacred language.
The single most outstanding difference between a sacred and
a survival language is the definition, orientation and usage
in the language of the word "I". "I" or
its equivalent is the source of language. Without I, there
is no you, he, she or it. The evolution of the word "I"
into a complex language is a process of creation. In the development
of a sacred language, the process is a conscious one; language
is an emanation, a creation, an instrument of "I".
In a survival language, "I" is an effect of the
cultural patterns already unconsciously established by the
language. In Sanskrit, even the sounds which make the word
for "I" are consciously selected. AHAM. "A"
is the first spoken sound, as well as the first sound of the
Sanskrit alphabet. It can be discovered by breathing, in and
with the mouth slightly open, releasing the breath with sound
that requires the minimal effort. It naturally arises in the
throat before the articulation of all other sounds. "HA"
is the last letter of the Sanskrit alphabet. After all the
systematic patterns created by the movement of the tongue
and lips have produced in perfect order all the other letters
of the alphabet, the final sound is "HA". It also
is the only consonant sound that moves by the power of the
breath alone, and the only consonant in exact proximity to
"A" . The final letter "M" is the very
last sound produced in the mouth, because it occurs due to
the closing of the lips. In Sanskrit, AHAM is the beginning,
the breath of life which brings forth creation, and the end.
And this is expressed not just symbolically by the letters
A-H-A-M, but physically, based on their location in the mouth.
The other most important attribute of a sacred language is
that each of its individual sounds are regarded as sacred.
Anyone can feel this by getting relaxed and repeating the
AHAM, over and over, and while doing so, feeling a complete
all-encompassing expression of self. Then, becoming silent,
continue to feel "A" as the inhalation and HAM as
the exhalation. "A" is the only sound which is truly
internal. "HAM" is the most complete expression
possible, arising directly from "A", and closing
after passing through all the positions of all other existing
sounds. The design of a sacred language is such that the sounds
perfectly express the vibrational essence of that which they
describe. In this way, words establish knowledge and understanding
directly.
The next stage of establishing a sacred language is an intimacy
with the other sounds of the language, becoming familiar with
their exact location, savoring their delicacy, feeling their
force and power, and the unique way they vibrate the body
and atmosphere. This is simply a matter of enjoying sound
without inhibition, as we did when we were children. In the
process of learning the Sanskrit alphabet, one discovers that
all sounds are encompassed in "AHAM". As other words
are created, the sounds which compose them become the means
by which "I-AHAM" establish my relationship of unity
with, rather than separateness from, all existence.
Part II
The primary characteristic of a sacred language is that the
purpose for which it's being used is discovering one's own
true nature. Sanskrit is so highly developed and refined as
a tool for serving this purpose that even the task of learning
the language seems "difficult" -- unless the motive
for learning is aligned with the function of the language,
that is, to know oneself. When Sanskrit is approached with
the humility and one-pointedness that is the trademark of
a genuine search for truth, it becomes revealed. There arises
a simple joy in all aspects of its study. Singing the alphabet
is especially inspiring even when one has become proficient.
My teacher, Shri Brahmananda Sarasvati, although a master
of Sanskrit, with more than 60 years of study behind him,
and his speech impaired by a stroke, still seems to find his
greatest delight in leading a group of students through the
alphabet. Perhaps, this says a much as anything about the
nature of a sacred language.
We seldom hear anyone over seven years of age singing the
English alphabet. Its not that these sounds aren't enjoyable
to sing. We do not have the same relation to the English language
that adults and children alike who have learned Sanskrit have
with it. That relation is a sacred one, based on the energy
conveyed through sound, a love for the unique characteristics
of each sound in engaging the mind, body, the breath, vocal
resonance, the mouth, tongue and lips.
Because of the simplicity of life in ancient times, there
was an acute awareness that all changes in life took place
as a result of changes in language. As new discoveries occurred
in language, there was an immediate and very noticeable shift
in human beings' interactions and in the way that they perceived
their environment. The evolution of human awareness was inextricably
linked to the development of language. It was natural that
more and more attention should be given to its development
as the single most important factor in changing the quality
of human life. This eventually gave way to discoveries whose
magnitude is inconceivable to us in modern times, where language
tends to be taken for granted.
The discovery, development and refinement of Sanskrit must
have taken place over millennia. Although Sanskrit along with
its great power to elevate human consciousness to sublime
heights, is often attributed to a divine source, we can also
hypothesize that its properties were discoveries that took
place as a result of human beings actively and intensively
engaging in the discovery of their own divine nature. The
most significant question that must have arisen to the ancients
was how to continue optimizing the human instrument, the body
and mind, as a vehicle for the expansion of awareness and
happiness. Knowing that the operation of the instrument depends
entirely on the language with which it is programmed, they
worked on the refinement of language software. They scrutinized
and experimented with the vocal instrument and the structure
of the mouth and then selected only those sounds which had
the greatest clarity, purity and power of resonance. They
then organized these sounds in such a way that they could
mutually enhance and brighten one another, and build upon
each other's resonance. They explored the factor of breath
in creating sound, and discovered that by minimizing the breath
with certain sounds and maximizing it with others, the language
would induce in the instrument a state of relaxed alertness
that could keep it operating efficiently and tirelessly for
long periods of time, while expanding and building prana-energy.
And as they did this, they became happier.
Furthermore, by coordinating the factors of purity of sound,
enhanced resonance and breath, there also developed an awareness
of the entire body as a resonating chamber through which sound
could be transmitted. With increased vibratory power, the
concept of the body as solid matter gradually became replaced
by one of the body as the center of an energy field. In the
process of transmitting sound energy, they observed subtle
changes in the field and found they could expand it by following
the sound waves. They had discovered that language has the
capacity to convert the body and mind into pure energy. They
began to feel joy.
It was further discovered that certain combinations of sounds
would enhance the expansion of the field more than others,
and this was experimented with, until sound combinations which
could bring about this effect universally were revealed. Their
joy expanded. These particular combinations became useful
words for describing as well as feeling the state of consciousness
they induced. In this way the breadth and depth of all that
exists was explored. They looked and listened and experienced
changes in the energy field, to see how the language could
be further refined, what new distinctions could be made. Eventually,
they fathomed creation and found their own identity at the
very source of it all. Their bliss was boundless. When they
spoke with one another in this language they established love
and harmony.
Over millennia, Sanskrit was refined as an instrument of
Yoga. By 500 B.C. it had reached a point where it was perfected,
and ready to be laid down formally. The genius Panini was
born for that purpose. So masterful, concise and comprehensive
was his great work, Ashtadhyayi in formulating the Sanskrit
language, that to this day, two and a half millennia later,
no one has been able to improve upon his original work. For
25 centuries, the language has not only survived intact, but
thrived through the love of countless enlightened sages, yogis
and scholars, basically unmodified. Just imagine a language
thriving with little change for 2500 years. In each century
there have been spiritual geniuses, who immersed themselves
in the blissful and timeless joy of Sanskrit. Many have elaborated
or commented on Panini's original work, but none have changed
it or replaced it. Yoga has thrived side by side with Sanskrit,
but through all the practice, experimentation and discovery
that has taken place in that science, there has been little
need to develop new language or modify the old language in
order to measure or inspire progress. Sanskrit had been perfected
by 500 B.C. as a tool for defining the ultimate pinnacle of
human aspiration.
Questions tend to come up as to why Sanskrit has not been
used more as a popular language, or why we are not now utilizing
it more widely. The primary obstacle, as I see it, is that
we have had difficulty in accessing Sanskrit in the way that
it is designed to be used. Because of the strong belief we
hold that we are our body/mind, our primary concern is what
is going to happen to us individually. We see the possibility
of change, being happy in the future. And we try to choose
and do those things which will most certainly secure our future
happiness or enlightenment. This equation is almost universally
interpreted as "getting more and getting better".
The approach never works for learning Sanskrit, or for being
happy.
Usually the motivation for learning Sanskrit is the enchantment,
inspiration, peace and deep sense of spiritual connection
felt when listening to it. Or it may have been a pure childlike
enjoyment in duplicating those sounds. Most people would have
no difficulty learning Sanskrit, if they simply remained in
the mode of what motivated them in the first place, their
enjoyment. But something else usually happens. The desire
to learn Sanskrit starts to be perceived as a future goal,
which, when and if achieved, will represent the securing of
the happiness which generated the desire to learn it in the
first place. The goal is usually accompanied by an expectation
of mastering a certain amount of material within a certain
period of time. The problem here is the old conditioning,
all past memories of happiness, present or future, being thwarted
by difficulties and interruptions. Greatest among these memories
is the loss of the simple joy of being a child and the pure
direct perception of life we all experienced in our childhood.
The nature of a sacred language such as Sanskrit is the direct
way that it models life, or accesses through the purity of
its sound and rhythms, the perfection and beauty of life that
we all experienced as children. On our first exposure to Sanskrit,
we reconnect with that purity and joy, and then with the desire
to secure that again in our lives, decide that we must learn
the language. On a very deep level, it's a decision to nourish
our spirit, and reestablish our oneness with life. But it
also at the same time brings us face to face with our existential
pain, the entire sum of our conditioning, all that has kept
us in a state of feeling alone and separate for the greater
part of a lifetime, as well as our repeated failure in attempting
to regain that happiness.
Once the task of learning the language is conceived, the
criteria for achievement are unconsciously measured. Success
is determined by comparing what one has managed to learn with
what remains to be known and how much others know. Success
also depends on the mastery of a certain quantity of information
in a certain period of time. The universal question asked
at the beginning, is "How long will it take me to learn
it?" But the Sanskrit language is so vast and distinctly
different from other languages and other learning tasks, that
from the very outset, it becomes apparent that it is going
to be very difficult to achieve the expected success in the
expected period of time. In addition, there are many Indian
speakers and scholars, one could never even hope to catch
up with. This inevitably brings the conclusion "Proficiency
is further away than I had believed." Along with this
assessment -- automatically arise the words "too difficult".
Sanskrit is too difficult.
But the problem is not really the perceived difficulty based
on the amount of information that exists in the Sanskrit language.
The fact that there is more information actually represents
more enjoyment. If one were offered a large collection of
the greatest music of all time accompanied by a continuous
flow of increasingly majestic and panoramic visions, one would
not be disappointed because it would take too long to listen
to. In other words, discouragement about being able to learn
Sanskrit has absolutely nothing to do with Sanskrit. Sanskrit
is an enjoyable experience at all stages. Working with Sanskrit
increases and develops energy and clarity of mind. There are
seemingly an infinite variety of euphonic sound combinations
and rhythmic patterns to be enjoyed. Experiencing them expands
the capacity of the mind to operate as the cosmic computer
it is designed to be.
The only real problem that arises with regard to learning
Sanskrit is forgetting why one decided to learn it in the
first place -- to feel the joy and purity one felt as a child.
When the real purpose is forgotten, we automatically default
to concerns about success and failure based on past programming.
It is only in regard to this that the idea "too difficult"
can arise. Once "too difficult" takes root, the
usual result is giving up, because one's image of oneself
being proficient, seems too difficult to attain within the
time limitations calculated as a factor in producing the necessary
satisfaction.
Although such resignation is based on the fact of long-standing
pain, it is not the truth. The truth is the original inspiration,
the joy, the play, the heightened awareness. If Sanskrit seems
too difficult, it's doing its job perfectly. A sacred language
must teach us to discover where the energy of being flows,
and it becomes easy.
The obvious solution is to have no expectations whatsoever
with regard to time or quantities of information. This is
an approach which serves our original purpose -- to enter
into that timeless dimension. If concerns come up or it seems
to be getting difficult, it's merely an indication that we've
forgotten our real purpose. The moment the idea of getting
or adding "more" arises, we lose the direct absorption,
the enjoyment, the sense of play. This is direct bio-feedback
-- "I am off course".
I have not yet seen Sanskrit, or life, fit into anyone's
time calculations or strategies. Sanskrit is a play, a dance
of energy in the eternal now. It, modeling life, is perfectly
designed to take us beyond our expectations, our self images,
our programming. But we must be ready to be in the role of
a perpetual learner, a student of life, of the ancient, eternal
wisdom, miraculously encoded in this sacred language. If we
believe that by learning a sacred language, we will gain knowledge
and power, then we look to a future goal which is by definition
opposed to our true nature. The power of a sacred language
is to immediately mirror this back, as if to say, NO ACCESS.
A sacred language, is one which guides us to our own true
nature, and every time we derail ourselves, reminds us in
some way that we're missing out on its real nourishment. If
we are going to engage, it must be with our total being, one
pointed awareness, free from the distraction of where it might
bring us, or rather, we might take it in the future.
Sanskrit is the living heritage of great rishis who walked
this earth thousands of years ago. It presents us with an
awesome responsibility and a lifelong challenge, while it
inspires us to remain fully engaged in exploring what's possible
for a human being. Learning Sanskrit is an opportunity to
know directly for ourselves what the rishis discovered long
ago. Most important, when approached as a sacred language,
it makes us happy.
On the seashore of endless worlds children meet. The infinite
sky is motionless overhead and the restless water is boisterous.
On the seashore of endless worlds the children meet with shouts
and dances... Tempest roams in the pathless sky, ships are
wrecked in the trackless water, death is abroad and the children
play. On the seashore of endless worlds is the great meeting
of children. Rabindranath Tagore
Part III
From the perspective of Yoga, all life ultimately merges
into samadhi. It could be said that samadhi is the essence
of yoga, In the Yoga Sutras, samadhi is defined, "tad
evaathamaatraanirbhaasam-svaruupa-shuunyam iva samaadhih"
that (consciousness, engaged in sustained focus upon a single
object), reflecting the object alone, as if empty of its own
nature, is samadhi. Everyone has had the experience of samadhi,
whether in childhood, or some deeply absorbing experience,
such as listening to music. It's a period when our usual identity
disappears because our habitual use of language has been discontinued.
My teacher used to say "the body is a prison only when
you cannot come and go as you please". The experience
of samadhi is the freedom to come and go. Without samadhi
we live in a prison of language, whose walls consist of words,
whose bars and locked doors are the meanings and significance
we unknowingly give to those words. Unknowingly, because the
meanings were never consciously selected. They were programmed
into us by prior generations. For example, when people make
a mistake, they tend to feel stupid or embarrassed. But whoever
(aside from lexicographers) really defined for themselves
what a "mistake" is? All we know is that we make
them, we feel stupid because of them, we feel we should be
able to correct them, but often don't, which is a "big
mistake". When did we ever decide my life would be enhanced
if I could find a word that would make me feel stupid, embarrassed,
and worthy of contempt each time I act with imprecision?"
From our parents, all the way back, the past has cultivated
words and meanings which now survive as our prison. We were
even told that it's a nice place and we should be able to
succeed there. What was perhaps actually meant by "mistake"
was "anything which one's child does that creates a fear
that the child is not finding it to be a nice place, does
not want to do what everyone else is doing, will not be able
to succeed, and therefore survive."
If you multiply all the words of the English (or any) language,
times all prior generations' fears about survival, you could
get an idea of just how thick the walls of this prison are.
Our ultimate challenge is to see right through those walls
rather than to take them apart brick by brick. The former
means changing our entire relationship to language. The latter
would be equivalent to getting the inmates (practically everybody)
to agree on redefining each word. For example, if we got together
and decided that "mistake" from now on means "what
occurs during a momentary lapse of attention from one's activity
-- essential (as a bio-feedback device) for all phases of
human development and self discovery", we would be removing
a large brick from the wall. But when someone screams at you
#!#!!# XXX, from another car, when you forget to use your
turn signal, the brick has suddenly popped back into its old
place. While it's a good idea to keep redefining words and
clarifying definitions, it's absolutely essential to redefine
our relationship to language. This means deciding once and
for all that language is the ultimate tool for being fulfilled
in life and "I choose to use it as such", as opposed
to unconsciously allowing the language of the past to subconsciously
dictate my identity. "I am at the source of, prior to
language, rather than at the effect of it, after it. I am
using language, not the other way around."
The sage Shankara wrote:
satsangatve nissangatvam
nissangatve nirmohatvam
nirmohatve niscalitatvam
niscalitatvam jiivanmuktih
In a state of satsanga, good company, (comes) non-attachment;
in non-attachment, a state beyond confusion; in truth beyond
confusion, motionlessness; in motionlessness, living freedom.
The verse could be used as a model of the necessary conditions
for making the shift from being at the effect of language
to being at the source of it. It all begins with satsanga,
good company. The best example of this that I know of is a
group of people who have come together to learn Sanskrit.
It seems that on some level, perhaps unconsciously, a person
who has decided to learn Sanskrit, has decided in some way
to use this sacred language for that which it was designed
-- to be free. It is remarkably easy for such a group of people
to change their relation to language, to put themselves at
the source of language and then select and use language in
a way that gives them access to Sanskrit, with ease and enjoyment.
Without the mutual agreement of the group, satsanga, good
company, it would be highly unlikely that the shift could
ever take place. We grew up in a world where a mistake was
a bad thing, enough so that most people would not risk making
one. This led to massive withdrawal. Though people remained
in a group, they were not really part of the group. In truth,
fear dominated nearly all groups. Natural unity was shattered.
The satsanga was lost. Groups were ineffective. Alone, individuals
were powerless. Everyone was hopelessly at the effect of the
language of right/wrong and smart/stupid. In effect, a "group"
could have been defined as a "body of people which has
come together to determine who is worthy and who is unworthy."
Fortunately, the Sanskrit language has given us the word
"satsanga", which could be defined as "a body
of people who have come together (sanga) to ascertain reality
(sat)." The fundamental agreement of such a group, such
as the one which has come together to learn Sanskrit, is that
"I" am prior to language. I use language to direct
my attention to a full appreciation of the beautiful sounds
of the Sanskrit language, their harmonies and their organization,
as well as the truths expressed through the language. The
language that makes this possible is the language of yoga,
another gift of Sanskrit. The satsanga agrees upon abhyaasa
the selecting and sustained attention upon a single focal
point, for example, listening to the sounds of the Sanskrit
language. It's also agreed that there's nothing "wrong"
with being off the point. Becoming aware that I am off point,
without satsanga -- I might worry about what I missed that
others got, I might worry about being left behind -- "others
are succeeding where I fail." But in satsanga where the
language of yoga has been agreed upon, there is vairaagya
or non-attachment, "the full awareness of my own mastery
to not-attach myself to habitual experience and simply return
to the point, and even acknowledge 'I missed something --
could it be repeated?'". For the satsanga, if anyone
missed anything, it's an opportunity for it to be reviewed
and clarified and enjoyed again by everyone. It sounds too
good to be true. Yet it happens exactly this way by shifting
our relationship to language. This would not be possible without
satsanga.
In the state of satsanga (satsangatve) comes non-attachment
(nissangatvam). There is no more attachment to being right,
and concurrently the fear of being wrong. The real satisfaction
derived from the wholeness of group unity, the much greater
capacity of the group to focus together, enjoy sound together,
appreciate the beauty of Sanskrit together, all make the prior
condition of being at the effect of words such as right/wrong
or smart /stupid or success/failure seem totally irrelevant.
Through satsanga, there's a complete shift in our relation
to language -- we see through the prison walls.
In non-attachment (nissangatve), there comes a state beyond
confusion (nirmohatvam). I'm no longer holding myself back
because of the fear of consequences. I am feeling my oneness
with the group. It's safe to put myself into it. There is
no conflict over wanting acceptance, while fearing rejection.
My confusion over whether to participate or not - will I be
rejected if I do it wrong or isolated if I do it right --
is gone. The illusion, and the confusion (moha) of being separate
from others dissolves. The truth that we are one emerges.
When we move as one, we go beyond success and failure and
access our natural ability to perfectly reflect whatever we
perceive -- samadhi.
In the state beyond confusion (nirmohatve), is motionlessness
(nishcalitatvam). This happens in the Sanskrit satsanga. In
the absence of striving to be better, fearing getting worse,
the old language that raced through our mind stops. The mind
becomes still, sensitive. A state of listening is present,
samÙdhi, in which we feel the nuances of Sanskrit,
its power, and the subtle way it resonates in the heart of
our being, like ancient and eternal music. There's no more
struggle to learn, to gain and accumulate knowledge. The words
of Sanskrit, through their sound vibration are like waves
of pure energy, which we enjoy as if watching a performance
taking place inside us -- while their meanings describe our
own fathomless perfection, as the seer of all, ancient, eternal.
In motionlessness (nishcalitatve), living freedom (jiivanmukti),
The prison walls, even the memory that they were ever there,
has dissolved. From beginning to end, from the first attempt
to learn Sanskrit to the direct experience of the meaning
of its ancient words of truth and power, Sanskrit generates
and establishes an entirely different relationship with language.
It's the proper relationship, the true one, establishing our
real unity, freedom from the bondage of the past illusions.
It keeps us savoring the timeless enjoyment of the universe
of sound, and a perfect creation.
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